Money money money. Ugh.
So I’m slowly realizing I make like $0/month. Not literally, but I usually have about $5 left over at the end of each month! I’m not even spending it on shopping and fun stuff... I’m spending it on food, chiro, massage, and physio. Oh, and my car. Ugh. Why is it that the necessities are so expensive? Like seriously... $50/visit for physiotherapy?
I found out a couple days ago that my physio is no longer covered by MSP, so instead of it costing $10/visit... it now goes up to the private fee of $50/visit! And my chiro is usually $10/visit, but when I called my physiotherapy office asking why I was no longer covered they told me that I can only get 10 visits of physio, chiro and massage (combined) each calendar year covered by MSP. So they have no idea why I’m still only paying $10 for my chiro... Since I’ve been going to chiro twice a month since November I should be paying the full $45/visit there as well! So now if I go to my chiropractor next week and they tell me I have to pay the full $45/visit there now too... I can’t afford it. I already should be seeing them more than I am, because their treatment only helps for a matter of hours after the visit right now! It sucks because if I cut out my chiro and/or physio it will cause more back pain than I already have... Which will make work a lot more difficult that it already is and I will end up cutting my hours which will cause me to be making even less money than I already am!
Oh and every doctor I visit still does not know what is wrong with me. So that’s even more fantastic! The rheumatologist says it’s not my joints, so it has to be my muscles. So now my GP is sending me to a naturopathic type doctor to see if he can figure out what’s wrong with me! So I have to wait 2 more weeks until that appointment... Ugh, ugh, ugh. Apparently ‘ugh’ is the theme of this blog post!
I’m enjoying my new job, it’s a lot less physically demanding than my old one and it’s great to be so close to home. I’m making a lot less money though, which is causing a lot of my stress... I’m making about half as much as I used to make. I’m thinking about getting a second job to pay for all my expenses, but I need to have at least one week day off to go to all my appointments. So I can only work one extra day/week! Not many places are hiring someone for just one day a week. And plus, my boss likes to have me available for any day so I can come in if he needs me! I’m not really sure how to go about finding this second job anyway... It was a lot of work to find this one! And if I do find one, it needs to be one I can physically handle, and I’ll probably end up going to physio and chiro even more, which costs more money and the circle goes on and on and on. This stress is also not helping my back at all, so it’s really just an infinite loop of ‘Ugh’.
Also, I really with I could go into my dream job of something in fashion (or even hair/make-up). But, I physically can’t. It really sucks when you know that even if you spend the $10,000-$15,000 on school to get to your dream job... It won’t matter because your body will not physically be able to handle the job.
My best friend is starting hair school in about a week, and I totally wish I could be joining her! I think it would be really awesome. But, until I’m diagnosed with something and start getting treatment that actually helps for more than a few hours (not to mention something that doesn’t completely wipe out my bank account!), I won’t be able to make any decisions regarding my future. I can’t afford to pay that much money for school when I know that I might not be able to handle the actual career. Ugh.
I really just can’t seem to win lately and it’s getting really frustrating. I have yet to find a solution to any of my problems, and no one else has an ideas either. UGH.
(On another note: I’m very happy I have a super awesome boyfriend to help me through all this! I love you babe <3).
